it's time

face it

原来我的心还是在隐隐做痛的。即使我不停的祈祷，看书，分散我的时间。在自己静下来的时候，在睡前的时候，在醒来的时候，还是落寞的。

改变生活态度的当儿，面对现实的当儿，还是会对于这样的状况感到心痛。
了解到，当我在心碎和痛哭得时候。其实根本你也是不在乎的

change

i want to change my life!

Downtime

2012 has been a rough year since the beginning. I look forward for a fantatic ending for this year. The downtime of my life (till now) has taken a toll on me. Total emotion breakdown for god knows how many times. I never been crying this much, which I thought I will not since 2008. Standing on the electronic weighing machine, I realized that I was 26 yrs old back then. I never pray this much as well. I am glad that I have truthful friends to support me, carry me with I am down. I can't bear to talk to mum at all. Knowing how much the people around me loves me is the biggest gift for me. I thank God. I have been negative for so long without even realizing. It is time to feel the positivity of life and treasure what has been given by God. Everything happens for a reason and everything will fall into their designated places when the time come. I just need to have faith. 

Will it be true?

Can God hear my prayers?
update: I think God hears me :)

Be brave

I realized that I am not that brave anyway. I may look tough, happy from the outside, but then I realized, I have been too dependent. Or I am never really that brave anyway. Chicken heart still within me. 

I need some courage!

enlightenment

终于明白诸事不宜的道理。 所以什么都不许要做。

Moody

It is another rough day for me. 

Rantings

You consoled me saying you will be back on month end, and a few hours later delay by two months. Mood swings. Where else could I see the functional word?

Full with emotions

Reading a book can make me cry so much, watching a show can make me cry so much too. I'm such a cry baby...