Karma

一切事情的发生皆是因果。

ending

Nearly 4 years of relationship, it just ended abruptly via gtalk chat. How ironic. I don't even had a chance to talk face to face at all. And when I had the chance for a face to face talk, I screwed it up. Guess that's law of attraction. My subconscious was towards the negative path, thus I screwed it. 原来幸福存款也有到期的时候。到期了被领走剩下的是破碎的心。景物依旧，人面全非。

1:2

现在快乐对我来说好像是痛苦的一半。得到1分的快乐，没想到痛苦竟然是x 2 的。还真的害怕有这样的痛苦。也已经不知道如何再和别人相处了。好像失去信心一样。sigh

爱情是美好的，但是它所带来的痛已开始让我却步。我现在已经不知道要如何再爱了。

Bravery

I thought I'm getting better. But I'm actually not. Sometimes I felt really depressed and I think it's dangerous. Sometimes I ask myself, why do I need to go through all these? If both of us broke up crying, why we still need to break up? I know there are more things for me to face in the coming months and I shall brace up myself for it. I will pick up pieces of my broken heart and put them back together again, I hope.

I have to say sorry to my thesis because I have to extend to another semester before I can grad. 

A gift from my bestie!

The best way out of difficulty is through it. Thanks Menh Chooi! Love you lots!

Looking forward for 3rd May

Time really flies and I've spent my whole first quarter feeling sad, devastated and non stop crying. Well, although I still feel sad, like I cried non stop again yesterday, but life still goes on. Which means, my vacation to Bali is still a big ON. It's so nice to be with my family!

I am delighted to get a news on wednesday night from my boss, and it shall be revealed when everything is confirmed.

Me, Myself and I

人人心中都有一把尺，
而且常常以自己的标准去度量别人的长短，
尤其是特别注意别人的短处，然后加以挑剔和批评。
人生短暂又宝贵，何不将批评别人、管人闲事的时间省起来，
管理自己更实际！ 通过学习佛法，好好修正自己，
客观地自我评估，自我管理。

Quote of the day

Saw a quote from a friend's FB. Self motivation indeed. Although I'm feeling down, sad, cry every now and then, and I don't even know how to feel attracted to others now; I must tell myself I will survive.

When people hurt you over and over, think of them like sand paper. They may scratch and hurt you a bit, but in the end, you end up polished and they end up useless. ― Chris Colfer

topic-less

Took a view on a few friend's blog, none really persistent in writing one. Guess now everyone has turned to FB and nothing to blog about.

Happy weekend!

如何收拾心情？

我们一直以为可以到的未来还是到不了。终于我们还是走到了这里，一个我们都不想要的句点。
我才了解情歌之所以可以那么痛，因为真的是这样。我才体会，一半做事都可以一半流泪。那种煎熬，真的好痛苦。原来我有那么多眼泪，可以哭湿很多件衣服。

我以为，我已经好一些了，毕竟都几个月的时间了。原来都是自己想像的武装，都是虚构的。原来，我还是一直在崩溃着。朋友们都劝我要收拾心情，向前看。我也知道那是我唯一的路。但是，眼泪还是 停不下来。虽然我知道我很渺小，但是我的心还是很痛。破了个大洞，都碎了满地。要怎么拼凑回去呢？

我真的受伤了

如果你真的爱过一个人，你这么会让他如此的受伤？当别人在攻击他的时候，你也不会站出来，维护他。你这么会那么的狠心，把你深深爱过的人，伤的体无完肤呢？

Haha

If people told me go to hell, I'll say, I will see you there, or maybe not, because I'm in heaven. Sorry to disappoint you.

坚强

看到好友如此的坚强，我真的自叹不如。好微不足道。加油吧！我们都能找到属于自己的幸福的。

Calm

面对你，怎么都冷静不了。再多的话，也一次一次的把我推到谷底。

Time to wake up!