Thesis

I was replying a friend's message on my MBA progress, wonder why I have yet to complete my thesis. The answer, I was too distraughted. Can't face the fact of my life and can't pick myself up.
However, I do believe things will find its way.

I really hope I can finish by November. I will! 

it's time

face it

原来我的心还是在隐隐做痛的。即使我不停的祈祷，看书，分散我的时间。在自己静下来的时候，在睡前的时候，在醒来的时候，还是落寞的。

改变生活态度的当儿，面对现实的当儿，还是会对于这样的状况感到心痛。
了解到，当我在心碎和痛哭得时候。其实根本你也是不在乎的

change

i want to change my life!

Downtime

2012 has been a rough year since the beginning. I look forward for a fantatic ending for this year. The downtime of my life (till now) has taken a toll on me. Total emotion breakdown for god knows how many times. I never been crying this much, which I thought I will not since 2008. Standing on the electronic weighing machine, I realized that I was 26 yrs old back then. I never pray this much as well. I am glad that I have truthful friends to support me, carry me with I am down. I can't bear to talk to mum at all. Knowing how much the people around me loves me is the biggest gift for me. I thank God. I have been negative for so long without even realizing. It is time to feel the positivity of life and treasure what has been given by God. Everything happens for a reason and everything will fall into their designated places when the time come. I just need to have faith. 

Will it be true?

Can God hear my prayers?
update: I think God hears me :)

Be brave

I realized that I am not that brave anyway. I may look tough, happy from the outside, but then I realized, I have been too dependent. Or I am never really that brave anyway. Chicken heart still within me. 

I need some courage!